My doctor's appointment with the the high-risk specialist was this afternoon (rescheduled from last week). She went over my previous labwork and ordered a crapload of more tests. Seriously, it was a lot - I think they took almost 20 tubes of blood. We should get the results in 2 weeks. Based on my previous lab results, the doctor explained that my blood is 5x thicker than other women. And when I'm pregnant, my blood is 100x thicker (yikes). You can imagine why that would increase my chance for blood clots. So, she told me to start taking baby aspirin daily. If some of my bloodwork done today comes back positive, she's going to start me on the blood thinner Lovenox (a nice little daily injection) before we try to get pregnant again. And if all of my bloodwork comes back negative by some chance, I'll probably still be on Lovenox, but it won't come until around week 9 of the pregnancy. She also said that negative results doesn't mean that I don't have anything - it just might be because they don't have a test for it yet, since they are constantly learning more each day. Regardless of the test results, I'll still see both my regular OB/GYN and the specialist, so they'll be monitoring me closely. The doctor also told me that I won't be able to go into spontaneous labor next time - we'll have to set a date for labor and delivery so I can stop taking my medicine beforehand. That's a little upsetting, because I'm all about having completely natural childbirth - no medicine or anything. But unfortunately, that won't be possible anymore. I know I have to do what I have to do so I can have a successful pregnancy, but it's still disappointing that it won't happen the way I always hoped. I'm also still nervous about getting pregnant again, because I don't know if I'll be paranoid the whole time about losing another baby. The specialist told me that there's a 60% chance that things will go well, but there's still that 40% chance that things could not go well. I don't like that statistic. One step at a time, I have to keep reminding myself.
Logan and I went on a retreat this past weekend for young adults, and while it wasn't the easiest, we definitely left feeling encouraged - resting in the fact that God does indeed have a plan for us.
"Remember not the events of the past, the things of long ago consider not; See, I am doing something new! Now it springs forth, do you not perceive it?" - Isaiah 43:18-19