"When a soul recognises the will of God and shows a readiness to submit to it entirely, then God gives Himself to such a soul and renders it most powerful succour under all circumstances." - Rev. Jean-Pierre de Caussade

Thursday, May 29, 2014

Week 32: ohhhh big boy

I've reached that point where people are all like "So when are you due? Any day now?"

Funny. Although I'm definitely bigger this time around than I was with Landon, I don't think I'm completely huge. Just saying.

But then there's this little boy in my belly that's been measuring on the big side for awhile now. Two weeks ago, he was 3 lbs 8 oz. This week? 5 POUNDS. Actually a tad bit bigger but I'm just going to stick with 5 lbs because that makes me feel better. The ultrasound tech couldn't believe it so she measured him 5 times to make sure, and yep, 5 lbs. Um, Landon was 6 lbs 13 oz when I delivered him at 38 weeks. I'm 32 weeks now.

The CRAZY thing is that my placenta seems to be getting yuckier each time. I mean, seriously. It was pretty noticeable to me that it was bigger and yuckier, and there were even holes in it. Yet this kid keeps growing.

I do have 3D pictures but they're not the greatest since Chase was hiding his face. But we (Logan was with me) did get to see him open his mouth and pucker his lips. So cute :)

My cervix is opening more but sounds like it's still okay for now. Dr. C said to take Procardia more often - every 6-7 hours instead of every 8 hours - because of my cervix. It's not completely surprising that my cervix is more open (honestly, I was expecting it to be worse), because I've been cramping off and on for a week now, and a couple of times the contractions have been pretty darn regular.

For awhile there I thought we would make it to term with no problems, but now? Not so sure. I mean, Chase is huge! But the good thing is that he's a decent size already if he does make his appearance early.

Next week I start having non-stress tests every Tuesday and Friday. And I also see Dr. H. I'm going to get him to guess how big he thinks Chase is because he guessed that Landon would be close to a 7-pounder right before my C-section (just by feeling the outside of my belly!). He was totally right. Gotta love an experienced doctor!

P.S. Happy happy birthday to my main man Logan!

Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Keep the nosy questions coming. NOT.

I know people are always asking personal questions and making comments about other people's families, but I thought that happened more to bigger families.

Well. Not so, apparently.

When people (who I've just met, mind you) see that we have Landon, who's still young, and are expecting another baby very soon, the questions start: "So are you done after this one?" "Are y'all planning on having any more?"

Let me just say that I personally do not care when people ask me these questions, because I'm an open book and am more honest than I should be, so I'll answer pretty much anything if asked (but I won't volunteer the information. Just saying.). Also, I DO NOT CARE what people think. One of the times this past week when asked about having any more kids, I made a comment about how my pregnancies sucked so I wasn't sure if I wanted to birth another baby, but that I was definitely interested in adopting.

This couple looked at me like I had two heads. Um, thanks. You asked!

Logan thinks I'm crazy for divulging that much information to people I just met. Whatev. I told you I'm an open book.

So, when asked the same thing by another couple I just met the following day (seriously, why are people so nosy?), I decided to make Logan happy and said with a laugh, "My pregnancies are rough. I can't answer that right now." Even though I know I will have another child, in one way or another, God-willing. Some people just can't handle that information, apparently.

Maybe I should just start telling people, "Oh yeah, we want at least 5 more kids!" That should shut them up, right? ;)

So anyway. The point I wanted to make is that we need to stop asking other people these deeply personal questions, because you never know what a family is going through. Infertility, pregnancy loss, job loss, etc. After I lost Levi, it took a year and half to get pregnant again. And the number of people that asked when we wanted to start a family was just ridiculous - they had no clue that we already had a son; he just wasn't with us anymore. The fact that we had been trying for so long too just added insult to injury.

And now that people are asking if we're "done" having kids (even though HELLO I haven't even given birth yet), I can't help but think that they have NO CLUE what we go through during each pregnancy. If they did, they would know that now is not the right time to be asking me those questions. Because seriously, right now I feel like I would go clinically insane if I were to get pregnant again.

But I also know that memories of my ridiculous pregnancies will fade. So while right now I can't say with certainty that I want to be pregnant again, it doesn't mean that it won't change in the future. Our boys will be older, Logan will hopefully have a different job with less crazy hours and less of a commute, and I will be holier and more capable of handling a difficult pregnancy.

Just kidding about that last part. My spiritual life is pretty sucky at the moment, if I'm being completely honest. Oy vey.

"The soul that aims at union with God should value all the operations of his grace, but should only attach itself to that of the present moment." - Fr. Jean-Pierre de Caussade

Sunday, May 25, 2014

Our week in pictures: thankful for family and friends

These two and their cuteness!

Landon has started "reading" to himself more lately
Helping Mimi with the cleaning
Hungry, Landon?
He just looooves his baby cousins. Makes me excited to see him with Chase :)
31 weeks!
Building a block tower is one of his favorite things right now
I walk into the kitchen the other night to find Logan making biscuits…from scratch. [insert shocked face here]
Two friends visited Landon and me one morning, and they played with Landon while I sat and drank my coffee (and water, of course). Thanks ladies!
He loves to help in the kitchen. A little too much.

Friday, May 23, 2014

My peeps. Love them.

This post is long overdue. I know I say all the time how blessed Logan and I are to have the family and friends we do, and seriously, it's so true.

A lot of stay-at-home moms have a hard time with loneliness and making friends and all, and while I can definitely see how that happens…I've been very fortunate to have a tight-knit group of mommy friends for awhile now…even before Landon was born. We have play dates, a "girls night out" as often as our hubbies allow, and even the occasional couples date night with our hubbies. And let's not mention the ridiculous amount of group texting…. ;)

A few weeks ago, my awesome friends threw me a "sprinkle" for baby Chase. They treated me to some Mexican food (my pregnancy craving) and gave me lots of fun and practical things for our baby boy. I loved everything - and ohmygosh, I wasn't expecting to get so much! They're so great. Here are a couple of favorites (although seriously, I'm so in love with everything, I just didn't feel like taking more pictures).

My cousin (okay, technically it is her husband that is my cousin, but I claim her as my own) is super talented!
And if this doesn't have "Jen's baby boy" written all over it, I don't know what does. ;)

I wish I had a picture of the whole group at dinner, but unfortunately our waitress was less than stellar and seemed too overwhelmed to take a picture for me. So, instead, this:
This was one of the only pictures that I considered posting, because I make some terrible faces while opening gifts. Really terrible. And yes, this is genuine excitement about cloth wipes! Don't judge.

And! If having a great group of friends isn't enough, I also have the best momma ever. She stayed with us for a few days this week to help out, and oh my, help out she did! Cleaning, cooking, playing with Landon, and accompanying me on a couple errands that I've been avoiding (putting a tantrum-prone toddler in and out of a carseat with a big belly while not wanting to go into preterm labor is not.fun.at.all).

Let's take a [very embarrassing] look at our house when my mom showed up:

And here's how our house looks now!

(Landon didn't want to be in the picture)
Soooo much better. This little corner still has work to be done, but that's what happens when we volunteer to store all of the items for a silent auction at our house….in addition to getting ready for a newborn.

Thanks to my friends and a HUGE thanks to my mom! Logan was a much happier husband this week, even without a day off work. ;)

Monday, May 19, 2014

Week 30 (+4 days): "are we there yet?"

I had an early appointment with Dr. H this morning (my appointments are all over the place this pregnancy - Dr. H and Dr. C are never available on the same day! Sigh). His first question was "Are we there yet?" As in, are we close to term? Um, no. He looked down at my chart, realized we still have a ways to go and then said, "Man, you have the longest pregnancies."

Well, thanks Dr. H. I'm glad it's not just me that thinks that! ;)

No change in my cervix, which made me happy because last night I was feeling a good bit of pressure. Procardia really does work, as much as I hate taking medicine while pregnant, because I'm finding that my contractions pick up the hour before I'm due to take another dose. Which was definitely the case last night.

So my uterus is actually measuring 31 weeks - which is good, considering I had been measuring ahead. Dr. H's big goal is 34 weeks, and I'm pretty optimistic about that at this point. When I told him Dr. C wanted to start seeing me twice a week soon, he said it was because of the fluid issue and that she probably wants to do non-stress tests. Which now that I think about it, I think she did mention NST's. So yeah. More appointments. I love checking on my baby boy but going to the doctor every week is kind of annoying! Especially when I have to find a babysitter for Landon. But thankfully I have plenty friends willing to help with that :)

Dr. H is going out of town soon (yikes!), so if you could say a tiny prayer that Chase will stay put until he gets back at least, that would be great!

Sunday, May 18, 2014

Our week in pictures: a couple outings

Landon really enjoys "helping" in the kitchen during the rare times that I do cook (mainly eggs. Protein yo).
On the way to the park. It was like 10 something in the morning but he was looking miiiiiighty tired already. This was at a stoplight. "Cheeeeeese"
….and this was literally 2 minutes later at the next stoplight. Seriously, dude? He will fight his nap like all get out at home, but he can't resist a car ride.
Our little monkey

He loves playing with these matching cards and although he doesn't actually "match" them, he will literally spend hours just shuffling them. Heck yeah.
I'm telling you, he loves the matching cards. Didn't want to part with them while he napped.
This picture doesn't do it justice but Landon and Dominic were literally shoving their faces with a friend's birthday cake.
Birthday party success. Another toy he is obsessed with that we swiped from church (don't worry, I'm tight with the priest and secretary and asked for permission ;) because I was not in the mood to wrestle it away from him)

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Week 30: what what

Well, well, well. We have made it to 30 weeks! Logan and I had 2 main goals for this pregnancy once things started getting cray cray - get to 24 weeks and then 30 weeks. Sooooo praise God! Amen Alleluia.

Let's give a little rundown from my appointment today:

  • Cervix is the same. Slightly open but stitches are hanging in there.
  • Dr. C doesn't see a hole (VSD) in Chase's heart anymore.
  • Fluid level is high again. I guess it's really been high for the past couple months, but last time it had dropped some and now it's back up. So, there's still the chance that Chase's stomach valve is too tight (I'm assuming Dr. C is talking about pyloric stenosis for you fellow medical peeps). But we will have to wait until he's born to see.
  • My placenta is still yucky but Chase is growing really well (which isn't usually the case with a bad placenta) so we're just going to keep monitoring it.
  • Baby boy is 3 lbs 8 oz. Which is pretty darn big considering my placenta hasn't looked good for the past 10 weeks!
  • Chase is breech buuuuut I don't really care because I'm not even going to get my hopes up for a VBAC.
Sadly, I have no ultrasound pictures today. I think I was the last patient and they were ready to roll on out of there. But Dr. C did say Chase looked really good!

I go back in 2 weeks, and then Dr. C said I'll start going twice a week after that. I didn't do that with Landon so I'm not sure why she feels the need to do it this time. Guess I should have asked…

Well, we are definitely happy with today's outcome. Honestly, I always have this fear deep down that Dr. C is going to be all like "We need to deliver this baby NOW" or that I'll be put on strict bed rest or something. So thank you Jesus for us being able to come home today, still pregnant. Whew. :)

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Just survivin'

I've been at a loss for words with this blogging thing lately. Life has been eventful and not eventful all at the same time. So my brain has been all like uhhhhhhh. I know that doesn't make sense.

Today was Logan's first day off work all month. Yes, that includes weekends. 2 straight weeks of him going to work, and me sitting my butt on the couch (and going to the bathroom approximately every 45 minutes) while Landon watches TV most of the day. Not ideal, but it's how we've been surviving over here. Thankfully, I've recently discovered that Landon looooves The Sound of Music, so we've been watching that. There's only so much Daniel Tiger that a pregnant woman can take! ;)
Julie Andrews has mesmerized him.
Logan won't have a day off again next week, which is super depressing. He's been working 6 days at his main job and his previous job has been needing his help on his "off" day. I know we're in a temporary phase of life right now, with him working so much and me on semi-bedrest, but man…I'm ready for some normalcy again. I haven't been bored, though, which is good - I have plenty of volunteer work, birthday party planning, and reading to keep me occupied. Plus Landon keeps me entertained. Seriously, this kid is hilarious (when he's not throwing tantrums, of course).

Despite everything (lots of work, little play), Logan and I have been good. And I mean that. Sometimes I wonder how the heck we're still surviving', and all I can say is God has been showering us with his grace. Thank you to everyone who prays for us!

My contractions have been pretty minimal most days, which is making me super optimistic that we just might make it to July without any problems. I'm being really tempted to start doing more around the house, because Chase seems pretty comfy at the moment…but that's probably not the smartest thing.

Yesterday, Landon and I actually ventured out into the world to meet some friends at a park. And I seriously think he was the happiest little kid on the planet. I feel really bad that we can't do more fun things right now, but I just don't know what to do about that. Since the pregnancy is going well right now, though, I may start doing more with Landon. House work and all can wait - my little boy needs some more fun in his life!
See? Happiest kid ever.

And well, that's been our life lately. Lots going on and nothing going on all at the same time.
"There is not a moment in which God does not present Himself under the cover of some pain to be endured, of some consolation to be enjoyed, or of some duty to be performed. All that takes place within us, around us, or through us, contains and conceals His divine action." - Fr. Jean-Pierre de Caussade

Friday, May 9, 2014

Our week in pictures: it was a good week!

Despite the fact that Logan hasn't had a single day off work in 10 days (and won't until at least Tuesday, *sigh*), we still had a good week. Thank you, Jesus!

May Crowning. Going to give the Blessed Mother a flower!

Oh, bashful.
And yes, he has fake tattoos on both arms. Ninja turtles.
We didn't get to visit Logan's grandma for Easter, so we went this week and she had some candy for him! He was obviously thrilled ;)
Maw Maw was helping Landon with his counting. With Hershey's Kisses, of course.
29 weeks!

Thursday, May 8, 2014

10 years ago. Don't laugh.

On May 8, 2004, Logan got down on one knee (oh yes he did) and asked me to be his girlfriend. We were juniors in high school. And we lived happily ever after.

Right. Seriously, though, we did start dating exactly 10 years ago. And although it's been one hell of a ride - both before marriage and especially during marriage - I feel so, so blessed to have met my other half so early in life.

And now for some embarrassing photos, okay? Lots of them. You're welcome. Thankfully, we've gotten better looking with age (in my opinion, anyway...although we still look like we're in high school...but whatev).
Oh my.
 Ring Night a couple weeks after we started dating. Babe, I'm so glad you changed your hair style ;) And I'm so glad I changed my wardrobe! Yikes.
We did a lot our senior year…zoo, aquarium, Six Flags, you name it.

 Sadie Hawkins dance
 Homecoming dance. Logan has always been the romantic one.
January 2005
A fundraiser dance for our youth group
 We both ran track our senior year (cross country too)
At Abbeyfest, a super cool retreat for teens
 High school graduation night

Our senior trip
August 2005
March 2006….on our way to a retreat
 June 2006
July 2006. My 20th birthday!
August 2006. A perfect representation of our relationship ;)
I'm not sure of the dates of these next 3…2007?

Goofing around at the bowling alley
We've been volunteering at the Buddy Walk (fundraiser for the Down Syndrome Association of the Greater New Orleans) every year since we started dating. (Well, Logan still does. I just go and enjoy the fun with Landon!) This was October 2007.
Easter 2008
I know we totally don't look old enough to be drinking wine, but I promise, we were 21. This was actually at my family reunion in Memphis in June 2008…where Logan asked my dad for permission to ask me to marry him! I had no idea.
The night Logan proposed! July 30, 2008

It's been a fun and interesting 10 years, that's for sure. And because I like to torture you with old pictures, I'll save all the pictures from our 10-month engagement for another day. :)


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