"When a soul recognises the will of God and shows a readiness to submit to it entirely, then God gives Himself to such a soul and renders it most powerful succour under all circumstances." - Rev. Jean-Pierre de Caussade

Wednesday, October 30, 2019

Confessions (vol.4)

I've considered shutting this blog down...but where else would I write all my crazy thoughts? I know people use Facebook for that buuuuut that's not me. Blogger for life.

I actually wrote two posts and just never published them here...including one about why we don't really celebrate Halloween. But I think people will just think I'm crazy so maybe that will be a post I never publish.
We're not opposed to holiday-related things, FYI 

Many days I just feel really overwhelmed with all of my responsibilities. (In addition to the obvious family stuff and housework, I have a part-time magazine job, I teach CCD every week, I'm helping plan our church's big fundraiser, run Surprised By Marriage....add to that another side job doing transcription work. Whew.)

Logan and I are planning to take a break from Surprised By Marriage during Advent and I CAN'T WAIT. (We're not giving it up by any means...we've just realized taking occasional breaks is so so so helpful.) This will be our longest break by far but so needed.

I'm not sure if I'll reach my reading challenge goal this year. My reading time is so limited these days, and it makes me sad.

I don't know if I'm ovulating. I wonder if stress is contributing to that...but I also don't know how to relieve the stress.

I have many friends going through some hard stuff right now and I feel bad that life is going pretty well for us. (Things are busy, as mentioned...but we can't complain, really.)

I want to go to Disney World again.

I still haven't signed up for a chapel hour since my last confessions post. Ughhhh but I need to.

If I'm not pregnant by the end of the year, that means I will have zero kids at home with me next school year. And that thought is so exhilarating and terrifying all at the same time.

I really like having big kids. Every time I'm around a friend with a baby or toddler, I remember how exhausting that is...and sometimes I think I'd be okay never doing that again. (Just to be clear...we still deal with tantrums and ridiculousness. Does that ever end?)

Now that we have some extra room in our budget, I'm realizing that the saying "more money, more problems" does have some truth to it. Because while it'd be really easy to get takeout every week like I've been wanting to do...I also know that's not the best use of our money when we have retirement, savings, and other adult responsibilities to think about.

Speaking of budget, we currently have categories for the following: couples trip, Disney (I told you), retreats, and vacation. If that tells you anything about my priorities. (Just kidding...we do have those categories but I'm also working on finally getting a month ahead of our expenses.)

Sometimes I just really wish Logan had a job that didn't require weekends and holidays. There are times where I'm able to just appreciate the fact that he HAS a job (with benefits!), but I'm not going to lie...sometimes it just sucks. I hate the fact that we never get a weekend as a family, and I hate the fact that we miss out on family time during the holidays. (Just thinking about the fact that he's probably working on Christmas makes me all teary. Ugh.)

Maybe I shouldn't blog when I'm on my period.

The boys in their saints costumes

Just so I'll end on a happy note (sorry)...there have been a few moments lately where I've been super proud of Logan and me when it comes to quality time with our kids. I guess you could say that's been a positive of Logan's work schedule - it's forced us to take advantage of the time we do have.

Okay, your turn...tell me a crazy thought of yours!

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